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Sunday, November 16, 2014
Honoring Our Vets - a Thanksgiving Short Story
Monday, October 13, 2014
Women of the World, You Have Worth...
Saturday, September 13, 2014
Encouragement in Difficult Times
- I stopped listening to
secular radio. Instead, I stay tuned to my favorite Christian radio
station at my work place and in my vehicle that broadcasts music with
positive messages by popular Christian artists. The DJs and listeners who
call in say words of encouragement at all times of the day and evening. I
found myself compelled to support this station financially since they are
only listener supported. I am helping to give other people hope through my
support.
- I stream sermons about
the Grace Revolution that is changing lives. No condemnation, only resting
in the finished work of my Lord and Savior.
- I also stopped
listening to much of the news on television. Yet, I keep myself informed
about headline news.
- And lastly, I get
involved with my favorite writing group on the side. I’ve come to know
some of my fellow writers, and I’m blessed to know them. On a side note, when
I started writing my first novel, I explored my own feelings regarding one
of my siblings and my father. I used these feelings to write about both
the antagonist and one of the protagonists in my story. I found this gave
me an emotional release from feelings that had been pent up for years.
Monday, August 11, 2014
Lose a Job, Gain a Garden
After three and a half years as a Bookkeeper with the same employer, one would think that a person has job security in a mom and pop company, right? Wrong! Especially if your employer’s religious beliefs violates your own religious beliefs. Add to this scenario that the employer does a good deal of business with people of their own religious persuasion. The fact that you are a regular American who has always celebrated Christmas (and Easter) is no longer valid once you step into your employer’s office, at least in their eyes. No poinsettias, no Christmas cards, and no decorations are allowed in this work place. This is one strike against you. If a friend of the employer is looking for other work, a position that you currently occupy, this could be another strike against you. It was in my case.
Let’s back up a bit before we finish the story. I had a good marriage through my twenties and early thirties. It wasn’t until we decided to relocate to my husband’s childhood stomping grounds that reality hit. We had no friends and no family in our new surroundings. My husband was in heaven as we lived on the Chesapeake Bay, but I was in hell. What good did it do to appreciate the awesome beauty around us, to hear the Canadian geese, the seagulls, and to watch the beautiful sunsets over the bay when we didn’t have jobs? I feared that we would get evicted. We paid our rent with credit cards. My relationship with my husband changed. We lost the intimacy we once had, and we drifted apart. I began to yell at him instead of having a friendly heart to heart discussion. Finally, I found a job at a trucking company. One day I went into my bosses’ office and cried and told him how bad my marriage was. He just listened until I was done crying, unable to give me any advice. I came to work with chest pains; I was experiencing a panic attack. At the urging of my coworkers, I checked myself into the emergency room. An uncontrollable emotional bout of crying came over me as I was connected to the heart monitor. The doctor prescribed antidepressants. I don’t remember taking a single one. But after getting those pills, I was determined to make it out of the pit I was in without relying on drugs.
I believe that a person has to look inward at his own self-worth before he or she can be successful. The definition of self-worth: the sense of one’s own value or worth as a person; self-esteem; self-respect. I am a firm believer that a “whole person” seeks wellness spiritually, physically and psychologically. I mentally separated myself in my thoughts from my husband in order to heal myself and the relationship. Another step in the right direction was joining a weight loss program which proved to be very successful. When the pounds came off, the confidence returned. When the confidence returned, my attitudes changed. When my attitudes changed, I was more successful in my employment. This was a difficult time in my life, not only for my marriage and my search for good employment, but we also cared for my father-in-law who was in poor health. He lived with us until his passing.
We relocated again soon after the death of my father-in-law. We decided to live in the Florida Panhandle. Job wise that may have been a big mistake, but God was watching over us. I took a job as a bookkeeper in a sign shop owned by a husband and wife. They appeared very professional. They had to be since they did business with companies on the beach that had large bank accounts. But I slowly became aware of their religious persuasion and the “other” people they did business with. I was even given religious tracts to take home. What was most entertaining was to hear the Misses use very scathing dialogue to the Mister when something displeased her. Her tone was like acid.
The rest of the employees in the room would jokingly say, “Brrrr! It’s awfully cold in here all of a sudden,” as we shivered in our seats. The Misses would leave the office.
The Mister would say, “Here I am, a shell of a man,” as we laughed with him.
Yes, there were times that it was nice to work with them. Still, there were other times that I wondered what I was doing there. I really wanted an excuse to find another job. But up until then it was the only employer that I had stayed with the longest since we moved to the Panhandle.
Then out of the blue it happened. One day I was approached by Mister and Misses employer and they told me that I was being terminated. They even gave me a sizable severance pay. Instead of lashing out at them, I thanked them for the opportunity to work for them. I had nothing but good things to say about them (at the time). The Misses did a fake crying spell as if I heaped fiery coals of goodness on her head. They stood there at my desk to watch me as I gathered up my personal belongings, as if I would steal anything or do something out of spite. It was later that I found out that they hired a very good friend of theirs to take my position. To my delight, she only lasted a couple of weeks.
Here we are, back where we left off. I was unemployed, but I kept a good attitude. Up until then, I didn’t own a cell phone. I finally bought a pay-as-you-go phone. It proved to help me in my job search. When I wasn’t job hunting, I considered landscaping the area outside my bedroom and bathroom window. It was a plain grassy area that ended at a privacy fence. The idea to spend money on plants in order to landscape sounds crazy when a household income has stopped coming in. But I kept my focus on two things: to plant a new garden and to find a new job. Why sit around and be useless when I can focus some positive energy into something beautiful? I purchased some Blue Point Junipers, a rose bush, berry colored Wave petunias, Yaupon holly, mulch, pavers and a statue of a sleeping Cupid sitting on a globe. I labored as much out in the Florida heat as I did scouring the city for employment. In planting my garden, I saw immediate results. The junipers, the rose bush, and the Yaupon holly were the “bones” of my garden, while the petunias and the Cupid took center stage. I recorded my progress with my camera as I did all of my gardening projects.
Meanwhile, I visited the unemployment office. At least there was the internet and a copier/fax machine available to use. While there, I happened upon an advertisement for an accounting position. A temporary agency placed a job opening through the unemployment office. What are the chances of that happening? The job opening was for a franchise home office in the hospitality industry. An interview was given, the longest one in my life. It was three hours, but then that seems to be the standard there. I got the job! I was only unemployed ONE WEEK. I didn’t even have time to collect unemployment.
When I look back at what should have been devastating to my household income and to my self-worth, I kept my focus on positive things. I kept busy. In the end, losing that job was the best thing that ever happened to me. I now worked in an atmosphere that was free from harassment, both religiously and verbally (no foul language). My last place of employment had me working in a hot warehouse while paint fumes seeped past the doorway into my office space. In my new job, I made more money, received paid healthcare, and had a beautiful office space with an atrium. And best of all, I had a better boss and better coworkers, meaning that they were the type of people that a person could form lifetime friendships with. Although, like many women, I still struggle with my weight; I probably will for the rest of my life. I consider my marriage to be a healthy one, although there are still some intimacy issues. But who doesn’t have them? We are both hard working people who share a lot of interests. We make occasional dates outside of home, and enjoy mixed martial art events on TV together. Common interests and a love for God help give us a healthy relationship. As one Christian acquaintance put it, “Your husband is God’s gift, and His gift hasn’t changed”. That was my neighbor giving me a pep talk when I was going through a dry spell. My husband was and forever will be my best friend and the love of my life.
I acknowledge that God has provided for me my soul mate/spouse, my employer, and all of the things that I enjoy. I would like to finish by quoting Proverbs 3:5 & 6, the Living Bible translation, “If you want favor with both God and man, and a reputation for good judgment and common sense, then trust the Lord completely; don’t ever trust yourself. In everything you do, put God first, and He will direct you and crown your efforts with success.”
Afterword
All of "Lose a Job, Gain a Garden" is a true account in my life, although I have omitted names and specific places. I cannot take full credit for my accomplishments to date, for my current employment or for being published - I give the credit to God for guiding my steps in my journey through life. Although I had a background fraught with deep personal strife and emotional pain, I'm pleased to say that my journey of healing is continuing to this day. I still pray for healing and restoration for my family members, but I have learned to let go of my own bitterness and unforgiveness in order to be a whole person - I'm still a 'work in progress' at this point, but it improves every day with God's help. My biggest supporter is my husband, who was adopted at a very young age and has given me the unique impression that even if other people turned away from me, God has never done so. My husband is proof that God continues to bless me by bringing wonderful people into my life. It makes the journey of life that much sweeter.
The news about Robin Williams's suicide is pretty devastating for me - I always admired how, even in the darkest times, he had such an amazing gift to make people laugh. It's a great loss for the world when someone with the talent and the ability to bring joy to so many people is suffering so much that they take their own life. But I think this highlights the need to stop the stigma of mental illness, because we've all been given great talents to use for the benefit of society and if we can't fight our way through our pain, we can't live up to our full potential. My heart goes out to his family.
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Sunday, July 27, 2014
Giant Tales Lava Storms in the Neighborhood - My Short Story "Flight of Hope"
FLIGHT OF HOPE
When it came to being an entrepreneur, Jimmy
Jenkins made it look too easy. He was known for starting successful auto repair
shops, selling them, and starting all over again. That in itself is quite an
accomplishment. But he didn’t stop there. He owned and piloted a private plane
in which he made money flying clients across the country. He had even
volunteered his time and money when natural disasters happened such as flying
supplies to Haiti or delivering a tanker of gasoline to hurricane Sandy
victims. Jimmy does not think of himself as a hero. He has acknowledged that he
has been so blessed by the Almighty that he must pay it forward to those in
need.
Although Jimmy and his wife Diane were in a
financial position to retire, Jimmy found it hard to live the quiet life. There
were always more deals to be made and more places to fly. On that note, he
agreed to fly clients to Seattle, Washington. Diane’s mother who lived in
Seattle was having her ninetieth birthday; naturally Diane wanted to fly out
with Jimmy and his client to visit her mother.
It was a beautiful cloudless day when pilot
Jimmy Jenkins flew his plane from Atlanta to Seattle. He landed the plane at a
private airport that bordered the Mount Rainier State Park. To Diane’s delight,
Jimmy had reserved a cabin for the two of them near the park. The snow covered
Mount Rainier was picturesque from their little haven.
The blissful night was interrupted by a series
of earth tremors which became increasingly more violent than the ones preceding
them. Jimmy turned on the radio in the wee hours of the morning. ABC News was
broadcasting a special report saying that reports were coming in from around
the globe of various volcanic activities.
Diane was now awake and came out in her robe. That woman could sleep through anything,
Jimmy thought. She walked into the kitchen to make some coffee. As she filled
the coffee maker with water, she looked out of the kitchen window at Mount Rainier.
Ash and steam were billowing out from the top of the mountain.
“Holy smokes! Jimmy, come see this.” Jimmy was
at her side in two seconds.
“Land sakes! Diane, we need to leave as soon as
possible. Forget the coffee. We’ll have breakfast someplace else far from
here.”
They dressed and packed in record time. The
suitcase was literally thrown in the plane. Jimmy fired up the engine. Soon
they were in flight and gaining altitude. While Jimmy concentrated on the
instrumentation, Diane gazed at the state park below. Her mouth dropped opened
as she saw some of the earth opening up, cabins crumbling apart, and trees
falling across the highway; but the worst part was yet to come. The little
Cessna Skyhawk continued to climb higher in the sky. More earth could be seen
which showed more destruction, similar to where they had just been. The ground
looked like it was experiencing a major earthquake as it shook and buckled
before their eyes. Large fissures opened in the highways and continued across
the valleys and into the mountains. Telephone poles wobbled and collapsed like
toothpicks strewn on a table.
There was a brief and eerie moment of silence
except for the hum of the engine. Suddenly Mount Rainier exploded open as tons
of smoke and ash filled the air. Everything within a ten mile radius was either
disintegrated or carried away on the ground by the blast. The wildlife that was
not disintegrated was killed by the sulfur dioxide gas. The blast zone extended
twenty miles from Mount Rainier, snapping trees in half with a force of twenty-five
megatons of TNT.
They were in flight for ten minutes when the
cloud of volcanic ash enveloped them and ultimately clogged the plane’s engine.
The Cessna sputtered as Jimmy tried to find a place to land. There was no
highway fit to land on. He saw a good sized lake that would have to make due.
He came about in order to make his approach while backing off the throttle.
While the plane skimmed the surface, it hit a bolder which sent it into several
cartwheels before it landed upside down in the water.
Jimmy unfastened his seatbelt and that of
Diane’s. She wasn’t responding. With Diane under one arm, he paddled to the
surface and brought her to the shore. She was still unresponsive. After a
minute of mouth to mouth resuscitation, Diane coughed violently while Jimmy sat
her up. A few of the people who lived in the lake homes ran up to them after
having witnessed the crash landing.
“Is she going to be alright?” inquired a young
twenty-something black woman with long hair.
“I think so. She would’ve let me know by now if
she wasn’t. We just need to get ourselves dry and warm if it’s possible.”
“I’m Bonnie by the way,” the woman said as she
extended her hand in greeting. “My home has survived both the earthquake and
the volcano blast but not without damage. You are welcome to stay with me until
we figure a way to get out of here.”
“Thank you for your hospitality.”
An angry looking man in his thirties was
standing outside of his house observing the newcomers. “You better not be feds
or so help me God…”
“Back off, Jerod. They are just regular folks
in need.”
“Well, I need
for them to stay off my property. I’m sure that looting will be going on big
time after this,” he said with the sweep of his hand. His black and white
pitbull growled at his side.
“Don’t worry. I’m sure they aren’t interested
in your marijuana farm that you’re growing. And keep that hell hound away from
here!” Jerod gave them all a dirty look and retreated back into his house.
Jimmy stood up and headed back into the water
to get supplies from the plane. Bonnie and Diane started to protest. He soon
proved that it was a good idea. He brought an inflatable boat, rope, and flares
with him. These were stored on Bonnie’s fenced property.
Bonnie had been listening to her ham radio of
the worldwide earthquake that had occurred. Many reports of inactive volcanoes
had suddenly become active at the same time. Thousands of people were either
missing or dead. Scientists were already predicting a volcanic winter caused by
the ash in the atmosphere that would lower temperatures and last for two to
four years. They were already saying that a third of the world’s population would
die of famine. Many were now in danger of enormous tsunamis caused by the
quakes. The entire world was under martial law. Food hording would be dealt
with forcibly by police. Looters would be shot on site.
“There is so much chaos,” Bonnie exclaimed as
she placed her hands on her forehead. “How can they enforce martial law on such
a global scale? They couldn’t even handle the aftermath of hurricane Katrina
here in the states! What makes them think this will be any different?” she
asked.
“The fact is, they won’t be able to handle it.
There are more civilians than there are military or police. I hope you have
some sort of gun because we’re going to need it,” replied Jimmy.
“I have some rifles in a gun cabinet. My dad
collected a few. He was employed by the state park many years ago. He taught me
how to shoot at an early age which I’m now thankful for.” Bonnie opened the gun
cabinet to reveal a twenty-two rifle, a shotgun, and a Winchester rifle. Jimmy
looked at Bonnie with a new admiration and respect.
“Let’s hope that we won’t have to use these on
people,” said Jimmy.
The rest of the evening, Bonnie stayed glued to
her ham radio, a hobby handed down by her father. More and more reports were
coming in about whole cities that were destroyed by the quake. The fault line
from Illinois to Memphis had lengthened to the Gulf Coast. The continental U.S.
was now in two separate land masses. The only way to get back to the East coast
was either by plane or by boat. Bonnie continued to turn the dial to pick up
radio transmissions closer to home. She came to find out lahars or volcanic mud
flows were making its way out from Mount Rainer. These were caused by the
eruption, mixing hot ash with the buildup of ice and snow; it is equivalent to
cement running down a cement mixer. The force of the mudslides was strong
enough to move mature trees, cars or even buildings. There were a couple of
news helicopters that were circling the blast area and reporting the progress
of the flow.
“Jimmy, we need to do something before the
mudslide makes its way into Seattle. We need to get my mother out of harm’s
way,” Diane implored her husband.
“I know, honey. Let’s inflate that raft and
take a few supplies. Anyone who wants to come along may do so. We’ll get to a
highway and try to make it into Seattle.”
“I’m coming with you,” Bonnie said. “All of the
wildlife is dead. My food supply is low. I’d be in a pinch if I didn’t come
with you.”
Just as Jimmy inflated the raft on the shore,
he was accosted by Jerod who held a hand gun pointed at Jimmy’s head. “I think
I’ll take that raft off your hands, mister. After all, man’s gotta do what a
man’s gotta do.”
Just then, Jerod felt the cold, hard steel of a
shotgun in between his shoulder blades. “Are you anxious to meet your Maker,
son?” asked Diane. “Just throw that hog leg in the lake like a nice boy.” Jerod
complied.
Once Diane lowered her gun, Jerod’s pitbull
stood growling and baring his teeth just a few yards away.
“Get
‘em, Spike!” ordered Jerod.
The dog
started to attack Diane. A loud boom was heard from the Winchester which blew a
hole through the dog. He somersaulted and stopped in a lifeless heap. Bonnie
stepped out of hiding from beyond her fenced property carrying the Winchester.
Jerod seethed with anger. All he could do was make vain threats.
“I’ll see that you pay for that, Bonnie. I’ve
had it with you. Watch your back.”
“Always have,” she snickered.
Jimmy, Diane and Bonnie gathered their food and
emergency supplies into Hefty bags and placed them in the raft. Two slim tree
branches were taken to guide them down the lake since they had no oars. Once
they made it to the other end of the lake near the highway, they traveled on
foot. They came across a gas station that had recently burned down after the
gas tanks ruptured by the quake. An abandoned semi-truck was parked along the
road with the keys still in the ignition. Jimmy climbed in the driver’s seat
while the Diane sat in the passenger’s seat. Bonnie sat on a crate in the
middle. They could now see at ground level all of the real devastation: dead
game animals, homes demolished, and forests leveled. They could see some trees
moving and going down which meant that they were seeing the mud slide in action.
They needed to speed up and warn people in Seattle. Jimmy accelerated as best
he could while dodging crevices in the road as well as other obstructions.
Jimmy drove right to the closest fire station.
He told the firemen to alert the public of the oncoming mudslides that would be
there in a matter of minutes. The fireman got in their trucks and each took a
section of city to call out warnings using megaphones. Volcanic ash fluttered
on the streets like gray, dirty snow when vehicles drove by.
Jimmy drove the semi-truck to the retirement
home where Diane’s mother, Helen, sat on the porch sipping her sweet tea.
“Mama, we came to get you out of the city
before those mudslides get here from Mount Rainer.”
“Do you mind if I bring some of my friends?”
“Make it quick, Mama. We need to go.”
Helen went into the parlor and gathered some of
the other seniors for a road trip. They dropped their cards on the table and
picked up their canes and walkers. The seniors were helped into the tall
trailer to sit on some crates. The arrangement was not comfortable or
convenient, yet they were excited to be out on an adventure.
Then just as he thought it couldn’t get worse,
Jimmy heard on the static sounding radio that Satsop Nuclear Power Plant to the
Southwest was very damaged by the earthquake. It was leaking radiation closer
to the coast. Minutes later the news anchor stated that the same power plant
had just been washed away by a tsunami.
A
tsunami? gulped Jimmy. That
would only mean that it would come up into the Puget Sound water way and flood
Seattle. And sure enough, the water started to rise over the banks of the
city. As the ocean tried to claim the land it was invading, it swept people and
vehicles up and around buildings. It almost resembled a ride in a water park,
only this one was deadly. Jimmy tried to steer the semi-truck even though it
didn’t do any good. The seniors in the trailer were being shaken up pretty bad,
but at least they were dry for now. They were being swept out to sea with the
strong current of the tsunami. They all stared in horror, afraid of colliding
with pieces of buildings and vehicles of all kinds. An occasional person
crashed up against the windshield and floated away. Debris from the nuclear
power plant could be seen floating nearby.
Hello
radiation, Jimmy thought. A giant wave sent the debris crashing into
the windshield of the semi-truck. God,
please help me!
Suddenly Jimmy was jolted awake during the
Sunday sermon at First Methodist Church in Atlanta. The minister was preaching
from the Book of Revelation. Upon seeing that it was only a dream, Jimmy
quietly exclaimed, “Hallelujah!” This got the attention of several church goers
as they turned to give him a stern look. He reached over with his arm to hug
Diane to himself as he settled in to hear the rest of the sermon.
~ The End~
Saturday, June 14, 2014
Royalty in the Pack (excerpt)
Royalty in the Pack
Friday, June 13, 2014
You Might Be A Writer If...
- Your dinner conversation is about your latest plot.
- Your characters are your best friends.
- You pitch to three agents who all want the completed manuscript–that you haven’t written yet.
- You insist all your family and friends read this draft, even though they’ve already read the last three drafts–so they can compare and tell you how much better it is.
- You have a quote for every occasion from the brilliant dialogue of your characters.
- You have a million story ideas until you sit down to write.
- You are working on your 27th draft and still don’t know how to fill in the middle
- You have 38 rejections and counting.
- The only people who understand you are others who want to be writers.
- One criticism wipes out a dozen praises.
- You measure time by the number of words you’ve written.
- Your favorite authors wrote “how to” book on writing.
- Your critique group members are on speed dial.
- You have a collection covering several years of the annual Writer’s Market.
- You’ve moved your writing beyond most of the items above.
- Your motivation is money–and you are making some.
- You consistently spend a set amount of time writing or revising.
- You ignore rejection.
- You know when to listen and when to ignore criticism.
- You don’t allow anyone to cut the “bad scenes or dialogue” out of your story until you know why you wrote it that way.
- You search for the heart of your story in the good and the bad and the ugly of your writing.
- You don’t let anyone else define your writing or you as a writer.
- You are writing for that one person to whom what you write matters, and all the better if that one person multiplies.
- You stop talking about writing and do writing.